So, this is a post touching on how I was treated on father’s Day. Boy oh boy let me tell you how mafas played me, on the day that, was supposed to be in the honoring of fathers/dads. I was treated as if I didn’t even f****** exist! And this is in regards to these fake a** black women who want to be acknowledged on their day set for them, but can’t appreciate a man on his day who clearly shows to try his hardest, and projects real worth and value, and I ain’t talking about Us-currency either. The only women who took the time to say anything was my mother, and my little girl and her mother, but even her shhh…. was shaky as far as I’m concerned and don’t think it was sincere. But my mother, and youngest child; those are the ones who show to be in my corner anyway.
I’m talking about these fake, snake hooka’z (Black women) who actually know me, and they know who they are. They see me, and who, I do communicate with here and there from time to time. These dry minded tired h**s; especially one in particular who I won’t say her name yet, but it’s coming, and I’m a make the b**** famous real soon when I drop the song about her, and some of these other pretenders that, I know and how horrible minded these mangy thot bots really are. I mean damn, that’s for us? I couldn’t get a simple Happy Father’s Day from none of these black women who I actually know, and have been there for, and acknowledged them and even try to esteem them to let them know that, there are men who show to try to keep the faith in them? “Your horrible ways are naught impressive.”
“Let a woman learn quietly with all submissiveness. I do not permit a woman to teach or to exercise authority over a man; rather, she is to remain quiet. For Adam was formed first, then Eve; and Adam was not deceived, but the woman was deceived and became a transgressor. Yet she will be saved through childbearing—if they continue in faith and love and holiness, with self-control.”
Maybe these women who I look to, to be for me than against me, are mad because of some of my post that expose some of they’re pretending, and wicked ways. Or maybe they just feel that, I don’t deserve to be acknowledged. Or maybe my trying to communicate with them, and how I deliver the truth just hurts so bad that, they can’t find it in self to admit their own flaws and when they might be at fault? Whatever the case, and no matter how they punk a** feel, I do have children, and I show to try and be there, and though, I may be seen in they’re eye’s naught worth the time, I clearly show to be here in living color, and show what some men don’t, and what their own children’s daddies don’t show. I have made myself available in ones time of need, and this the thanks I get? “These hooka’z got me f***ed up!”
Oon Rilla, I’ve showed to be there even when some of these hooka’z own children’s pappies wasn’t and didn’t even make time for their own seeds. Maybe I’m the sucka huh? Yea, well that’s what real katt’s like me do when you give a damn and over care for a ungrateful a** woman, which means that, I also care about her children. Why? Because, I know how it is, but this is one of the main reasons why, I am single, and naught married, because these black women ain’t right in mind, heart nor spirit “What happened to real women?” When asked could I go up to the school for a certain woman’s children did I say: “Naught my child nor my responsibility?” Well ask that b****. And show you how even them little mafas are cut too; they didn’t even take the time out to call and say shhh… neither. Smfh Relationships between men and women are fictitious #InTheseDayzOfTyme.
IT GETS DEEPER
And it don’t stop there. It gets deeper. Even my so-called children ain’t have shhh…. to say either on my day. Really? So basically, I don’t even exist for whatever they’re UN excusable excuses may be, but here’s the thing; no matter how they may feel about me, them little mafas wouldn’t even exist in this life time, nor their children either without me, gong half on them, so I’m oon they a** too oon Rilla. None of this is cool as far as I’m concerned nor does it make any sense to me. And to be honest, I’m really just venting right now, because as a man/father/dad, and artist my expression is way of trying to get some type of balance in situations like this, because I’m hurt, I’m disappointed, I feel dishonored, disrespected, turned on and betrayed by the very ones who supposed to love and appreciate me no matter my faults, and this tends to weigh heavily on ones mental.
One thing we do know if you know me, or of me is that, I know how to admit my faults when and or if I’m wrong in any way. These are the ones who should try and work towards better bonding and connecting with me, to support me, rather than bump heads and make dumb a** excuses to distant themselves from me, due to having these f***ed up attitudes with no ability to settle differences with a man who tries to reason when it comes to situations, and if anybody should have an attitude, it should clearly be me.
It just shows how horrible minded some of these black women have become, and how they are teaching their children to be just as worse #InTheseDayzOfTyme. They low minded, and disrespectful, and would rather show honor, love and respect for some of these scumbag punk a** so-called real dudes who clearly just use they ass up for what they show to be, and that’s just a “Carrier.” They go to bat for all the wrong ones, and try to make mockery of men who struggle to make them look like fools, because they are choosing to take better paths in life, but that’s too much like right The shhh… I see, but yet, I still try and give these buzzards the benefit of the doubt meanwhile all they do is try to come with that snake mind state, and pamper these suckas while paying them to be slaves so that they bend to their voodoo will, and obey their every command, and if I have to subject myself to that, then I’m straight, and you can stay your musty made up Mannequin face a**es as far away as you can from me, because I’ll do you dirty, real dirty for playing with me.
I mean how could these mafas do this to me? Oh, I think I know what it is…. Their on that “Take the man of God’s kindness for a weakness” tip. And while I’m on that, even the scriptures speak on some thing that say’s honor thy mother, and thy father right? It also says how a disobedient child will naught make it far right? But yet, some of these same “HALLELUJAH, AND THANK YOU JESUS HOOKA’Z” who talk that “I put my pastor and church first before you” type of b****** but in the same breath are the same ones who basically using God and Jesus’s name as a front.
They have really struck a nerve, and I feel violated in every way without naught even an apology. These are the same BITTER a** black women who are some of the same ones who actually see men like me, struggling to be and do right who shows to make time to be around, and active in my child’s life who act like what a katt do ain’t shhh…. Is it jealousy? Jealous of the fact that, I show some of what they wish their BABY DADDIES could project? Nope nothing special, I just try to make corrections to my own errors, and continue to work harder, and I thank the creator (God) for that, and that in itself is the difference.
And as far as my so-called children are concerned they don’t f*** with me, because I’m too zero tolerant for them, I guess. But, is that a justifiable excuse? Never have I denied them and or made myself naught available in case they just may want to take about some real life shhh…, but I just don’t have the mind time for the fake world shhhh…… I leave that for them to deal with if they so choose, but I show some of what others choose naught to show, and this the thanks I get? Never should they have crossed the line with me, and show such disrespect, and dishonor, but as the saying goes: “The creator (God) don’t like ugly” so, I just gotta “Pray 4 Those”
“Honor your father and your mother, that your days may be long in the land that the Lord your God is giving you.”
I mean how could any women, and or her children naught appreciate a man like me, who struggles and tries to be and do right. I’ve lived the life that, some of these bust down b****** look at to be real in these dudes acts, and they’re so quick to cling to, and have their backs while katts like me, continue to be played as if ones change doesn’t matter. I know that, I’m naught perfect by far, and naught trying to be. And I may naught have that IDEA man with the fantasy look that some of these dames be trying to have a katt switch to. Try to dress a n**** up to be a show piece like he one of them funky a** mutts that they be having, and that’s probably why you see many of them with those little mafas, to replace a man who don’t play games. I know that, I am naught the only one who has experienced this, and that’s why I’m doing this post.
To express myself, the heartache and pain of man instead of going into a rage and choke the life out of one of these disrespectful a** black women, because if you wrong, you wrong, and if you wrong then be woman enough to express it. Why play me like that? I guess that’s just the world that we are living in now. So anyway, thanks for reading and feel free to hit the like, and drop a comment below with your thoughts on this topic. Am I wrong for feeling this way? I mean seriously who does this to men of God who struggle to be and do right? Make sure to press play, and listen to the song above, and leave some feedback, I’m out. Peace and many blessings to the eye’s, and minds that seek.
When A Chief Speaks
Black Man Arrested While Pregnant Black Woman Appears To Endanger Her Unborn?
Okay, so I saw a video that was posted earlier that showed a black man having an encounter with the police, because of an automobile issue. There was also a pregnant black woman who might have been his girl friend who was also present, It her other children were in the car. Now, from what I watch in all three video segments in a group on Facebook was very disturbing, and leaves room for questioning. By looking at the video, it shows how the man was telling the police officers that they couldn’t just do what they wanted to do with their car as far as towing it, which I personally agree totally with that. But then he continues to go on and on acting in a way that they would consider as belligerent, hostile, non-compliant, which would then give them probable cause to detain ya a** for resisting, which is one of they’re favorites to pin on you if you give even the slightest room for them to do so.
Next thing you know, they on him, and trying to detain him. And then his pregnant girlfriend decided to get involved, and told the officers to give her her dog. Now for me, my thoughts were that, if anything; she should’ve been more concerned about asking for them to give her her man back, but that’s just me. Anyway, then it got even more crazy, and intense, and the next video piece shows the woman if I seen right swing her purse at the officers who were trying to arrest her boy friend, and then you already know what’s about to happen next right? you guess it (Assaulting a police officer) I’m a leave the link to this video below or you can click the picture’s and go directly to it, and you tell me what it looks like to you.
My thoughts are mine on this, just as yours is going to be yours. But here’s the thing; from what I saw in this video is why, I’m asking the question that I am when it comes to the post title. And this gives me the perfect reason to question whether black people are truly serious about what they say; “Black Lives Matter.” I’m just so fed up with our people who keep up this whole “I don’t give a F*** mentality, but want to be respected, but how when you continue to show that you can’t even think in situations like this?
Can anyone tell me, how it mattered in this situation when it came to the possible endangering of ones own unborn child all due to feeling harassed, and a possible towing of ones car? I mean seriously we are living in very serious times, and this situation could’ve ended up worse. And then to make it no better, you have all of the extra mind mess of people’s agitating thoughts that only seem to just pour gas on an already fuming fire. I don’t know where it happened, but I just wanted to share this, because regardless where it happened, it is always our people that, I’m seeing who are allowing self’s feelings, ego, pride and emotions to get caught up in situations with the police why is this?
And until we really start being honest, and calling shhhh…. for what it really is instead of bandaging it with excuses to act out in ways that doesn’t really help the situation especially when dealing with law enforcement (Police) that clearly puts one and the others lives in serious positions that only lead to chaos in the end, you can naught expect positive outcomes in these type of situations. Wake up Black people, and realize that, you too have responsibilities, but the it is on you to recognize what they are in these peoples society In These Day’z Of Tyme.
“My people are destroyed for lack of knowledge: because thou hast rejected knowledge, I will also reject thee, that thou shalt be no priest to me: seeing thou hast forgotten the law of thy God, I will also forget thy children.”
It’s naught about letting them (Police) get away with shhh…. if they’re caught wrong, but how do you expect to do that when you acting a fool, and then turn around and move it more in they’re favor? Explain that shhhh…… and then we can talk about it, otherwise there is no sense to trying to reason with the unreasonable. If you want better, one must show their own due diligence by ones acts of intelligence, naught ignorance that you are naught who and what they might already see you to be. When you watch the video leave a comment below, because I really want to know people’s thoughts on who they see to be in the right and who was in the wrong, and all and all, I’m just bringing awareness to this type of stuff in hopes that it will help people see what naught to do. Peace and many blessing.
When A Chief Speaks
I think that, the creator (God) and the universe are are my biggest listeners, readers of my thoughts on my Gods4lo Blog and even fans when it comes to my thoughts through my creative music workings. When I go through what I go through, the only ones who I feel that are truly watching, reading and listening are the two. The obstacles that, I face in life are experiences that, I tend to have to face alone, and will either help or hinder me, so I’ve learned to try and find a way to deal with them, but it gets hard as hell, because when you know what you are up against In These Day’z Of Tyme, the fight tends to be double the weight. And though there are many of days where, I feel like just f****** giving up, I think the two sends reminding vibes to me that: “For life is a struggle, and without that struggle, there is no meaning to the struggles in life that you are going through.” Who wants to feel like their going through it alone?
To some, this all may sound as if I done finally lost it, and went completely crazy, because to you all this appears to be alien, because you really don’t have a standing to where I’m coming from. And whether I am right or naught matters naught. What does matter is whether I am able to feel what I am feeling, and be able to deliver it the way I am, which in itself is by choice, and knowing that, I am still able to show some type of feeling lets me know that, I haven’t allowed self to be completely overthrown and taken over by the many things in this world that has been known to turn a man straight heartless, numb, cold-hearted, bitter, carnal-minded, careless and just as evil as those who are showing it with no filter.
And knowing all of this in itself is an example of what I mean by the “Battle Of the Mind.” Some of these struggles are the many that we all are found to be going through and faced with, and it’s nothing new under the sun. So as a music recording artist/music producer Divine, and native man on the land who also tries to have a life outside of music, I too go through what I go through, because may be it’s meant. And going through what I’ve been through in life has helped me a great deal throughout my time, because there’s nothing like experience, it tends to teach the best lessons if one chooses to learn. What I’ve been through allows me to paint pictures musically with my lyrical flow, and I feel that, this is the gift that was given to me, for the purpose set even before I was conceived. It has nothing to do with being special, but everything to do with what you have to offer that just may help those along the way just as I was while on your mission in life, and til this very day.
Knowing how hard I have worked when it comes to the little that I do know, and do offer, I still find self having that feeling as if people are trying to undermine, underestimate, overlook, belittle, discredit and play me like; what I have to say, and offer doesn’t matter, and at times have me on some real f*** the world shhh…, and feeling like there is no need for me to be trying to breakdown nothing to nobody, whether it be about how important it is for oneself to be at least trying to build a relationship with the creator (God) and or working on ones mind state in order to better “Know Thyself.” But what do I know is that, I knows nothing, and though, I am a master in my own way, I still find it important to also humble self, because I am also a servant and one could easily get lost due to ones ego. Oh you didn’t know? Yea, the ego is a mafa.
So when it comes to my ability to serve, what I choose to serve is what I have worked my way to knowing, because this is what I asked for, this is what I prayed for, this is a part of my beginning stages of the change that, I feel that the creator (God) and the universe needed for me to recognize, to see and know that this is way bigger than you and I. Whether people want to acknowledge my change, and strive towards better or naught, I think what matters is that, I know how hard it has been, and how hard I have worked when it comes to my mind state so, why would I give up on that? Why would I give up on those who I know were there all my life, and was there to mentally uplift me, in my time of need? And furthermore, who gone try and debunk those truths, the truths of ones own experience, and walk?
I learned, and still am learning how important communication, better social skills, analyzing and comprehension is. And as I think back on all of this, and look at what I am now faced with many years later, I feel as if I was being prepped, and groomed for the fire (test of times).
“And whatsoever ye do, do it heartily, as to the Lord, and not unto men.”
Just seeing, and knowing how everything is now in reverse when it comes to this world that we are living in messes with me mentally, because to see how people have switch sides, and traded in the natural way for the unnatural way. People have naught forgotten, but by their own freewill have been tricked into thinking one thing when it’s really another. Instead trying to see, know and try to better situations they’d rather create an even worse one. Facebook has now become peoples way of socializing, which that in itself is naught the problem, it’s how careless minded people are with the tool that is very troubling. Let’s be honest, and ask yourself: “Is your relationship way more stronger with Facebook, Twitter, YouTube and any other social platform that you feel will listen to your every cry, issue, problem etc, or is it with those whom are actually close to you who tends to make you feel like they don’t understand what you are going through, so you would rather put your all into connecting with and feeling accepted by a thumb, annotation, comment and share?” Am I lying? Your communication with people on the other side of a screen has become more important than your supposed to be stronger connection with the creator (God) first and foremost, family, friends and especially when it comes to the bonding and closeness that you should want and need when it comes to man, and woman, woman and man (better 1/2 is what I choose to say, and even your children too.
You don’t have to agree with me, you don’t even have to listen nor accept anything that, I have taken the time out to place before you, the possible reader of this post. But one thing you can never say is that, there is no one who is, and have been trying to help one see the importance of paying attention when the creator (God) and the universe speaks. And this is where I am right now, and this is why I strive to deliver no matter how hurt, no matter how let down, betrayed and ignored that I may feel, I find it important to try and now focus on the task and purpose at hand, and that task and purpose is possibly doing what was asked of us all to do. And whether you choose to or naught, I am only responsible for my own choices in doing so or naught, and that is a part of the whole freewill deal.
My creative work is a part of my therapy of the once disordered. It helps me to naught only heal the wounds that, I’ve caused to self, but even the ones that people who are close to, and or have been close to have caused as well. I see my voicing what needs to be voiced in my art, creative music work, and music production as my way of getting the work done. And even though, I feel at times that, I am naught accomplishing, and really getting nowhere; some people do show to appreciate what I am delivering and that is why, I strive to continue to try and reach the minds of those who seek, it’s just sad that the ones that really see and are showing to pay attention are those who are naught close to me in real life. It’s those who are in real life like family, so-called friends and (women) in my life who, I thought that I could depend on who tends to cause the most mental damage, and they wonder why.
No one should have to feel like they have to go through life and fight the good fight alone. No one should have to feel as if the creativeness, true value and worth that one is clearly able to show by their works are overlooked by those who choose to watch you struggle with trying to figure things out with no help from the ones who you feel should want to be involved in your visions, your dreams, your goals and to feel the need to be closer to you in order to be able to say: “I was there, and still am, because I see the potential in the workings of the creator (God) being projected threw him or her so, I didn’t want to miss out on the experience.” And you know what? I can’t name naught one individual that has and or would even think to have it on their heart to say what I just said, but it has to be on and in ones heart already in order to even be able to project these type of thoughts.
But on the flip side of this, I do know of two that does listen, and want me, to elevate and succeed. There are two who reads and who I consider as my biggest readers, and listeners of my thoughts whether it be through this Blog and or my art in music. The two have shown regardless of my imperfectness, and once upon a time engagement in the darker side has continued to be with me all of my life and never turned or forsaken me while on my journey. And so, I say today as they already know that, I truly appreciate, and thank you for being here for me, even when those who I feel should be for me, show to be against me, and being against me, is no different than going against the two, and that is something that one should naught want to do. I see a part of me, fulfilling a fraction of your purpose, and for that, I show my gratitude and appreciation by allowing the purpose to flow from, and threw, which is what you allow me to be able to do, thank you for seeing me, fit to help fulfill what you already have said that you will do. #Gods4lo
“I declare the end from the beginning and from ancient times things not yet done, saying, ‘My counsel shall stand, and I will accomplish all my purpose.’”
Peace and many blessings to the eye’s and the minds who seek.
When a Chief Speaks