I ask myself this question all the time. It be times where I don’t feel like people appreciate me, or my work am I wrong for feeling this way? There are times where I feel that I’m just wasting my time trying to bring awareness whether it be by my dealings with people on a spiritual level or through my music. I have mixed feelings about a whole lot of things in life. I see much of what goes on, because I pay attention, and I react to what I choose to, and I touch on what I feel I should when I need to.
Sometimes I feel as if I’m accomplishing nothing while others are accomplishing a whole lot, but the truth is, it may be just that I see what is going on, I don’t like nor approve of what’s going on, and the fact that many people are acceptable to the unacceptable, and though it appears that those who are in what I see to be good positions in this life are really not. Is it a illusion? Maybe, is it that my mind is playing tricks on me? Maybe, and should it matter to me? maybe.
To be honest, I just wish that I was in a better position to be able to help the people who I see that are down. When I see some of my people they look so wore out, damaged and on they’re last leg. Like we’re just hanging on for dear life, poor with nothing more to offer. And then there’s a flip side where I see other races like Caucasians, Arabs, and now even Asians as well as others races who are seen to be doing better than my people why is this? Well, I do take the time to try and find out why, when I try to ask my people questions about what is it that they want, and do they have anything to talk about, they don’t want to speak on nothing why is this?
So, when I come across these type, I say to myself why bother? Why spend my time trying to help those who show to not want to even help themselves by simply just talking about the conditions within the community, and touch on some ideas on how we as a people can work towards bringing a much needed change. I try to reach people, and even help people even when I myself too need help in certain areas. My people make it very hard to trust them. Trying to get my people involved is a task in itself, and at times can be very overwhelming. We talk about Black Lives Matter, but yet we’re the ones who are doing the most harm to one another, and to me, that is racist in itself.
How can we expect any type of change when we as a people are not making the necessary changes among-st one another? When I spend the time to do these post, it is in hopes that they will reach, and or be found by those who are trying to have a better standing to whats really going on, and just that alone is part of the reason to why I find the strength to do what I do, and be who I am today verses who I once was many years prior to. Just today’s thoughts from the artist, and man who tries to elevate the minds of those who seek.