Why I’m feeling Foreign
Why Some People In the United State of America
Got Me Feeling Foreign As Hell
I think a lot about way more than just trying to get my music out, and show that, I’m the best Rapper, Beat Maker and or Music Producer. I think about the things that, I guess I’m supposed to think about, because I could be thinking about other stuff right?
Something popped up in my head last night, but has always been the thought to how I be feeling foreign as hell when it comes to life here in the supposed to be LAND OF THE FREE AND HOME OF THE BRAVE, the united States of America. A land that, was clearly built off of a lot of business, control and bloodshed, but I’m not getting into all that today.
A land that, I don’t have to ask the question of whether it loves a me, or not for it is not the land who has shown not to, but it is those who live on this great land just as I do who, and so I focus my questions to some of the people in the united States of America.
So, “Do and or can you really love this man of a different color and race?”. I would say yes, but then you have those who choose not to for their own hidden reasons, which is fine, but if respect is given, then it should be returned, and I stand on those principals.
I think about how it is clearly said in the writings of the scripture (The Holy Bible) that, “I am entitled to have dominion over all in the land and on earth.”
“And God blessed them, and God said unto them, Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth, and subdue it: and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that moveth upon the earth.”
But then, I think about all of what has occurred throughout time. All of the racial feelings that many of these Caucasians, Europeans “AND OTHER RACES TOO” have against not just my race of people, but others too that was passed on from those of their decedents, who carry this with them, hate, unholiness and really be trying to hide it acting like everything is all good until there is a situation that moves them emotionally that causes them to get caught up in their feelings and then what do you know, the mask comes off, and then what was hidden has just manifest and been exposed, and mind you all of this is by choice and freewill, its called: “The Battle of the Mind.”
I think about all of the stories told of what some of my people have went through, and how they were treated, some things like: being considered inferior, and less of a human being etc. and the craziest thing about it some Caucasians still feel that way, but When it was clearly known that my people possessed something of great worth and value that, the oppressors saw and knew about, and feared, but at the same time was envious, jealous and full of greedy thoughts, so they did what they did. Excuse? Far from it. And there is so much more to all of this as well as so many questions unanswered.
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So when I have to think about my life while moving around as what some of these other races would call: a Colored man, Black man, Negro, Nigger, African American and any other name that SOMEONE ELSE CAME UP WITH as a title for me? I truly find it a very very hard ass pill to accept, and I won’t, because I know better.You don’t tell me who I am, I tell you who I am, and that’s if I choose to do so, and that is the power I possess through my unalienable rights handed down to me from the supreme Creator.
Just knowing of what was, and how far my people have came, and the standing my people held as Kings and Queens is one of the reasons I don’t complain, and why I strive the way I do, and mentally fight the way I do, because I know that, I am more than what and who one sees me to be, and I am more appreciative than anything for my people being strong as they were, and who they were, and they weren’t just slaves. What I possess today, which knowledge of, is what I worked hard to get and none of this would be possible without the guidance of the Creator, the universe and my will to know Thyself as I was instructed to do so. But they got me feeling foreign as hell when I have to be placed in a situation like: unexpected encounters with police officers (PIRATES) public servants who I don’t even know who are out on the land in their offices patrolling, and controlling while DOING BUSINESS, and make it their business to get all up in mine.Want me to respect them, but violate me by force isn’t that SLAVERY? “KIDNAP ME AGAINST MY WILL,PROCESS ME IN THEIR WAREHOUSE (JAIL CELL) AGAINST MY WILL AND HOUSE ME LIKE A ANIMAL AND OR THEY’RE PROPERTY?” (PRODUCT) and then want me to argue and plea hoping that I bring controversy? To have a standing with anyone who practices such acts and behaviors, and tries to define who and what I am, but knows nothing about who and what they are, but wants to have control over me, playing with my life In these Dayz of Tyme says a lot.
But you wanna know what makes me feel even more worse, and more upset, let down and violated? How my OWN SO-CALLED PEOPLE HAVE ACTUALLY DONE ME WRONG, AND WILL TRY AND TREAT ME THE SAME IF NOT WORSE THAN THE SO-CALLED OPPRESSOR. And let’s not forget how people treat one another. Why do I say that? Well,apparently I say it, because that’s been my experience all my life, and just may well still experience it til this very day, but I now know better, and through my acts, I show better; take and embrace the good with the bad, but feeling as if I’m catching it from both ends is not something that I enjoy.
Plus, a lot is revealed to me, as far as history,and boy ole boy some of the acts that were carried out by my decedents really hurts to even think about, but I must also remind my self also that, where there is truth, it is also mixed with lies, because there’s another side to every flip of the coin. But, I have to question my own SO-CALLED people of descendant in Africa, the motherland and place that I see some of my people running around with the RED BLACK and GREEN representing the SECOND LARGEST continent “Yep, the second largest, and if you didn’t know NOW YOU KNOW” that were of different tribes, but similar color and said to have kidnapped and sold off other African decedents to foreign traders who they were in partnerships with who were out doing business, it was all about business conquer and control, and my so-called people were getting paid off on the low off the lives of their own people with something shiny?
It may well be true. And that also might explain why Africans who come over here to the US show through they’re actions that, they hate and or can’t stand us who are supposed to be their people? Not only that, but are able to even come over here a benefit by more opportunity to being able to own businesses etc. African men and the women, look at me strange as hell as if I’m their enemy why? Makes me go Hmmmm….., so knowing that, HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO FEEL?.
SO IS IT TRUE?
So when I think about that, and then think about all of what I see going on today with my SO-CALLED people who show to not care COMMITTING SOME OF THE SAME ACTS AS OUR DESCENDANTS back then; against they’re own people today, how am I supposed to feel? And you wonder why I’m feeling foreign as hell. Upset and pissed off, let down and betrayed, because it’s not supposed to be this way. I can’t even trust my own people of race? Which one of them can I turn to when in my time of need without them trying to SECRETLY ENSLAVE ME?
Think I’m tripping? I’m not, and it was said to watch out for these type but, I think this all had to play out like this, because of history, the real truth of the matter, to clear up all the cover up and lies, and most importantly the lessons that life serves up, and the Creator needs us to learn and correct the rebellious, stiff-necked, hardheartedness that my people have acted out and are even doing til this day against the most high.
“Ye stiff-necked and uncircumcised in heart and ears, ye do always resist the Holy Ghost: as your fathers did, so do ye.”
So do you now see why I feel this way? Because as I look at the world we live in, and the land that I was naturally born into as one of the indigenous original people, it seems that, there is more than meets the eye. I see all these people who are in the White House, congress, the GOP, senate, state and local who are holding these seats and offices who are Law Enforcement, Politicians, Clerks of the Courts, Judges, business owners, and property owners but yet, I DON’T KNOW NONE OF THESE PEOPLE, but their the ones placed in position to govern the governed? And to be honest, I’m not too much tripping about that, so as long as my rights and civil liberties are not violated and I am not dishonored then there is always room for reasoning, because when it comes to me, I am a man of reasoning especially when it comes to the law of the land.
One who is of the Creator (God) and who possesses worth and value that flows threw the bloodline who has unalienable rights to life, civil liberty while in pursuit of happiness that is guaranteed by the laws of the land that were inspired by the Creator (God) and the American National Constitution for the united States of America that was put in place to protect those rights; could that be me? Why sure it is. Want me to vote, but I know the difference, be involved participate in things that I don’t even understand much about on one end, but know some of the basics and still learning. I do have some type of standing, and I show it through my actions everyday, but for some reason some people don’t want me have it for whatever they’re reason may be, but by right I am entitled, you strangers try and deceive me with conniving means for your own hidden agenda, and benefit, and to do that, is not upright and just and definitely not Divine
So how am I suppose to feel when facing obstacles like these? I’m out here by born-right trying to do what is right and just, have things that, I know that I am entitled to and do the work that I’m supposed to do, which is minister the word of the Creator, reach and teach and be more of the solution than more of the problem within my community, and anywhere I go, but you have people who are in these powerful positions who are so evil, and CONNIVING and so lowdown that, they are no different than those who were also committing these same acts in history.
They Got me feeling foreign as hell when I see the plays going on and my SO-CALLED PEOPLE are involved in the same deeds that they scream about the opposite race (WHITE PEOPLE), Which are actually (Caucasians)and(Europeans) and I’ve yet to even understand how people continue to go on acknowledging something that one can actually see with their own eyes cannot be unless your colorblind and yet if that’s the case then color doesn’t even matter nor count right? Or does it.
Then, there’s the whole promotion of everything that is not of good. That’s what I see my people (Black) promoting. My people use what was created by someone else, and then pick up the torch and glorify it, and love it to death by dancing to death and at the same time continue to do the dirty work of programming your own people with the tools that were designed for otherwise, but it just goes to show that, this is how Satan works, and it’s all by design, just the blind leading the blind. The embracing of the many things that actually corrupts us especially in the music, music videos, and entertainment and even sports and we put all our energy into things that these people made like DRUGS, AND GUNS and then when it’s used we have to pay the price for something that we used that isn’t even our creation? And for them that gives enough reason to take your life away from you isn’t that slavery? Hmmmm……
The promoting of the Dark side
But my people overlook these things that I am addressing, and would rather act how these people want them to act and that’s “like a damn fool” with no thought in exercising of common sense, nor spirituality and just don’t give a damn except about Jordan’s shoe and any other mind controlling product that shows to have more power. And can’t forget the ones being like crabs in a barrel, but what they don’t realize is that, stepping on someone else s back to reach the top faster than them has always been a part of Americas image in history right? But I could be wrong.
They Got me feeling foreign as hell when all of the things I just addressed make plenty sense, and not just to me, and it might not to you now, but hopefully it will in time (Common Sense) to know the difference between wrong and right. Being able to have knowledge of for my own awareness helps me to makes better decisions now in life. Doing so shows ones Humility, which is what the Creator wants, and so is a struggle in itself, but helps oneself to find and obtain a better balance.
When I raise these type of issues, I’m looked at as the crazy one. Try to convince me that, what I see and experience is basically my mind playing tricks on me, and is all a figure of my imagination right? And don’t get me started on the whole religious thing, because that is a whole topic in itself, but I will say that, it is very relevant to this post, and I note:
“religion is nothing more than just a tool, and way of establishing order with self, helping one to be a better man and or woman in the eyes of the Creator and only can be seen as bad when it is used in that order by those who are representatives of that particular faith base and who use the teachings to control and deceive.”
And it was said: “Examine yourselves, whether ye be in the faith; prove your own selves. Know ye not your own selves, how that Jesus Christ is in you, except ye be reprobates?” But I’ll touch on it another time.
They Got me feeling foreign as hell, and my so-called people aren’t making it no better. I just feel like there’s more to it, and it is, so that’s why I keep the Creator(God)in the loop of my everyday dealings, because as I navigate the Creator is my co-pilot, and the universe is my energy source as I am among-st this world full of thieves, dishonest people and pirates aka (profiteers) who trying to play me like I’m foreign in my own land.
p style=”text-align: justify;”>So in the end, am I really foreign? Not if I was naturally born in this great land, which makes me one of the indigenous original natives. But then, I could may well be if I am of the Creator (God) right? “So God created man in his own image, in the image of God created he him; male and female created he them.” And if that’s the case, then that alone gives me entitlement, so as long as I don’t abuse my power, show dishonor by breaking the laws of the land, and be the change in the world that I want to see. Many Blessings.