How to Know Even When Sometimes You Feel Like You Don’t

How to know, even when Sometimes I Feel Like

I haven’t done a new post in I can’t even say when, but just know. This life of mine, there’s never really a dull moment. I was sitting here earlier and the thoughts hit me. How sometimes I feel like, even though I know.

And then, there’s times I feel like, I really just don’t. Sounds like confusing crazy thought talk right? You get to feel that way, because it does seem to come off that way. And yea, I think we all have those moments where confusion tends to creep up.

How to know, even when you feel like you just don’t. It just all depends on what it is that one is thinking about. I have a habit of doing just that, thinking a LOT! And doing so, I tend to absorb certain information, and or situations.

Like a sponge that soaks up water. So, I decided to push self into doing a quick post about it. I don’t want it to end up being one of my oh so long post. That some may find a bit too much, and decide to not go any further reading.

How to Know Even When Sometimes You Feel Like

There are things that, I feel like I know, and I do. But then, there the many things that cross my mind. How to know things that, I still have questions about. I tend to just try and not even trouble nor bother self  by just leaving certain things alone.

I have to ask self: “Aren’t you going through enough in your head?” Soooooooooooo much I have went through these past few months. Dealing with whatever situations I tend to encounter, and face. I even had started to bring a song together many years ago. It’s called situations, put a little YouTube video together. But never did anything with it.

Sometimes, I feel like I’m getting somewhere, and know I have grown in mind, and Spirit. And then there are those many moments in time where I’m just not sure about certain things in my life. And maybe, just maybe you, the reader can now see where I might be coming from a bit more clearer. I’m starting to think that, I’m slowly loosing it without even knowing I am.

You ever see self knowing kinda where you went wrong. But yet, still asking yourself: “Where the #@%! did I go wrong?” And the only answer that seems to pop up is: “I #@%!ed up!” And that’s where I find my mind drifting off to, and this gives cause my why of such thoughts in this post.

So What’s Next

That’s what I tend to ask self silently in my head. And to make things no better, it’s also that time of season. For many people this time of the year doesn’t set well. Stress is involved, anxiety, unwanted pressure, feeling of depression, heartache, alone feeling and just down.

And combined with old man winter weather, it can really get to you. So much that I want to do, and do for others too. But how can I? Part of my life and time is wrapped up into just striving to be able to do.

Those who know, know exactly where I’m coming from when I say this. Who cares right? Everyone has their own fair share of going through it too. Trying to deal with problems so what’s so unique and special about mine, one may try to challenge.

The fact that, I know ME! What I show to do, and my why for starts, paves the way as well as shows reasonable justification. For me to express these thoughts of mine to why, I feel how I be feeling. And in the same breath, how to know even when you feel like you don’t.

What I Happened to Come Across 

How to know even when sometimes you feel like you just don’t. While typing these thoughts, I happened to come across some information. Relating to my post, and knew nothing about until now. Take for a very good example the whole “Sometimes I Feel, but at the same time feeling like I just don’t know.”

The information that, I happened to come across interestingly enough. Led up to finding this recording artist name Todd Rundgren. Who I never heard of, until now. Who has a song titled: “Sometimes I Don’t Know.” and can’t help but feel his thoughts/song.

Was it meant for me, to find in order for me to know? I’ll let you decide, but then there’s another. The Chicago rapper Juice WRLD who I’m actually familiar with. But knew nothing about his song titled: “Sometimes” which I found self listening to, and I must say that.

I actually know a bit as well as can relate to all while feeling his pain deeply! Now why, I happened to now come across not one, but both? I kinda know, but at the same time don’t. However, there are quite a few things I am getting from what I’ve gained, and received.

So What Now

What I know is that, “My mind like I’ve been kinda feeling, also gets dark and wild.” Which is some of what I heard come from the this young rapper/artist Juice WRLD. And then: “So if I just believe in myself, I won’t need no help from nobody else and I can make it alone.” Coming from Todd Rundgren, I couldn’t do nothing but stop typing.

Closed my eyes, and just shook my head. Coincidence? Or maybe something else. Either way, I now get to look at it, and use what I’ve found. In whatever the way G-d intended, because I feel like G-d and the Universe are the only ones. 

Who don’t just, but are listening, and paying attention to the thoughts of this artist. The one who sees, goes through and knows. Yet it means nothing to anyone even if I am a recording artist. Or, a man who has messed up his whole life, who now just strives to get it right.

All while in a sense suffering mentally due to not being in the position I would like to be. To NOT be able to have and do, it bothers and trouble me, to my core. To not be able to have like I should and deserve, like my Heavy Chevy (car) fixed and able to move around. Having less problems, because my safety as well as others are important. So in the meantime like I say in the song Tryin’ 2 Maintain: “It’s so hard in this game trying to maintain.”

EndNote

But regardless to how I’m feeling, experiencing and going through. I tend to remind self to be thankful. How to know? I’m actually showing you, by paying attention.

And one of the main ways to doing that is by trying to keep up with taking care of self. To then be able to take care of your business in order to be able. Which then allows self to show to be able to be available to and for those who I see to deserve. I’ve found it very VERY important to value my own mind and time, because my own mental health matters.

That’s how and why I sacrifice, in a good way. When it comes to my work I do be it for G-d, that is truly important to me, regardless to how some be treating a katt. Like I don’t show to go hard for G-d, undermining me, because I come and deliver differently. Furthermore, that also includes the manpower side shown, and what I strive to deliver as a recording artist.

“And whatsoever ye do in word or deed, do all in the name of the Lord Jesus, Giving thanks to G-d and the Father by him.”

Col 3:17   

Guess this post ended up being like some of the rest, ANOTHER LONG ONE. Was it worth it? For me, I can say yes, because even though “sometimes” where the artists above were in they’re head. Is a daily feeling for me, and that’s where and why I seek and ask G-d for guidance, especially when those feelings of assure and don’t know are less than more.

When A Chief Speaks