What I do matters but does it? – Why I don’t connect as well

What I do matters, but does it really?

So, as you might or might not be aware of the fact that, I haven’t been posting at all. There’s good reasons to my why. One of those reasons are the fact that, I sometimes run into mind road blocks. As I am sitting here going through my site, changing some settings and queuing these VPI files.

It came to mind to why I really don’t be putting out as I should. Why I don’t post as fluently and frequently as oneself sees that he should and would like to here on my site. Part of the reason is possibly because it I feel like even though what I do matters, it doesn’t. But does it?

I think about it, all the time that I be needing to spend just trying to bring my thoughts together on something that, I want and feel the need to bring awareness to. All of the different moments in time, and the media content that I find self accumulating to share.

Some of my REAL, and nowhere near experiences when it comes to engaging, and making moves while out and about trying to take care of my business. I see, and also try to catch some of the many things that, I either find very interesting. Or, like I said; bringing awareness to situations is what I also strive to do. Why? So people who aren’t aware and want to be, can be.

What I Do Matters But How and Why?

Yes, what I do matters even though some may see, and feel otherwise. There’s a lot that comes with this whole taking the time to think, organize, type, post and share. Time plays one of the biggest parts in it all. You have to have, or make the time to not only show to do, but be up for doing it.

There are many day’s in time that, I really don’t feel up to it. Nothing! Just trying to maintain in this game of life and make the day worth living is enough of a time consumer in itself ya dig! Trust as well as know that, there’s WAY more that goes on with me, than I care to let on and make known by sharing. What I do matters, but does it really? What good does it do to is what pops up in my head at times.

But, I do get it, I ain’t the only one on this planet. Everyone in a since are going through whatever it is they are facing and has they’re own stories to tell. Or maybe it’s their lifestyle that they so eagerly want to put out

Why Continue?

How do you fit in? I probably don’t. How do you do what it is that, you truly love and have a passion to do? It’s hard when you have to figure it all out ALONE. Can you see it now? That other part of what I have to face daily? The invisible obstacles and barriers that a katt takes on. There is NO easy nor quick fix to this dilemma.

I continue to because I’m a fighter, and I mentally fight and survivor. And as a man who is also an artist who see’s and knows a little bit, which is where knowledge comes into play. Is it valued? Do people find worth in what I might have to say and show to do? What I do matters, and I know this; I’m just NOT interested in trying to convince, the truth needs not help through convincing.

Something that, I ask self all the time, why continue? There’s so much more I could be doing with my mind and time right? Why bother with taking the time to even type what I am typing at this very moment? While a bit deep in thought about this, I happened to I guess be led to something that relates to why I’m even doing this post.

I came across an article titled: “You Are Important: 12 Reasons Why You Matter” by a chick/author name Rachel Sharpe for a site called Declutter the Mind I think you can see how and why I can truly dig the site name, it relates to me! Not only that, but I found self relating to everything that, I read. Super interesting I must say. I guess coming out of this mind fog, slump, and posting drought I’ve been in was worth doing.

EndNote

So as I work my way towards finishing up this post. And after finding and reading the what I came across on the site. I guess that it’s G-d’s way of making sure that, I remind self. And to know that though I feel like what I’m doing doesn’t matter to anyone.

Doesn’t mean that what I’m doing isn’t relevant. And though I just want to give up, I have to recognize that yes, I am important, there is no one doing it like me. There is a purpose set, and somehow I do play a very big role in society. Destined for greatness which is the name for one of my songs on my first EP. In These Day’z of Tyme.

So in the end, I know why I do what I choose to do. In hopes to help make things right by getting stuff done. Yes, I tend to show to do things, I help others. And whether people are willing to acknowledge it or not.

I someway inspire as well as brighten people’s day. I do this in hopes that, someone like you will find what I might have to say. Hey, I’m just striving to do the light-work for people to see, recognize. Then choose to also make some changes as well as bring awareness by sharing what they found.

As I continue to stress, it’s NOT just about me, and my music work. But sometimes I wish that I did make it just about that, MY MUSIC. Guess I have work to do decluttering my mind. And on that note, may you the reader have found value in something you’ve read in this post. Can U Imagine?

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Author: ZoORillah Midwest

Adam is the Great when he's on or off the mic. Yes, a creative conservative, and also a bit of a rebel when it comes to the unjust practices exercised by those who show to be oppressors.I've been through a lot, memories still haunt me! Renegade writer/rap recording artist, digital content creator/producer who sets the record straight. They call me, ZooRillah Midwest, the artist who expresses on many different levels. Ready for what I might have to say? Input | Strategist | Adaptability | Realist | Connectedness| Strategist | Adaptability